I FELL IN LOVE WITH MY BEST FRIEND
♫♫♫ Through all the girls that came by
And all the nights that you'd cry
Boy, I was there right by your side
How could I tell you I loved you
When you were so happy
With some other girl? ♫♫♫
He was my classmate back when I was in High School...
He's been may kaasaran...
Ka-kwentuhan...
Katawanan...
And ka-piktyuran...
I started 'falling' for him when we were in 3rd Year High School...
The day of our JS Prom...
The day when I I saw him dancing with Carmela...
Which happened to be one of my closest friends too...
Because they both love each other, I didn't intrude nor enter their 'relationship'
Not a wrecker kasi...
I just let them enjoy the moment and lived my own roller coaster life...
Until the day came that Carmela confessed to me that she is seeing this guy--KARL...
I felt bad for my best friend simply because he didn't deserve it...
He's kind, sweet, thoughtful, and I love him...
But I never told that to him...
Not a single word...
So days went by...
And finally, Carmela told him about this 'guy' she's seeing...
I saw him...
Crying...
I went down to him and he hugged me...
HE HUGGED ME!
That day, I really wanted to tell him how I feel...
And because I am COWARD...
I didn't tell him anything...
About my feelings...
About how I wanted to be with him...
Talk to him every single day-- having fun, laughing, taking a lot of pictures...
And the most important thing, I didn't tell him that I REALLY REALLY LOVE HIM...
In college, we went to different schools...
We had our different circle of friends...
Had to hung around differently...
But it came to a point, when he went to our house one night with his mountain bike...
I asked him where he has been...
He answered, "Dyan lang."
And it lasted for about a month and never heard anything from him again...
I just then found out that their family migrated to Canada...
I felt nothing...
I felt numb that time...
He has his own life--
A new home...
New friends...
New Best Friend...
And a Girl Friend...
Until I realized that I let go one of the most important person in my life-- my BEST FRIEND...
I didn't even had the courage to tell him that he is IMPORTANT...
That even it will take long...
I'm willing to wait for him...
"TAKING RISK MEANS HAVING THE COURAGE TO FACE UNCERTAIN ANSWERS."
virmasimonette.



